Life has been rough, people have been dying, and I've come back to the eternal question: What am I doing with my life? I'm going through a mid-mid-life crisis. I'm only 14 (almost 15) and I can't sleep because I'm too busy wondering where life will take me. Recently, I've been complaining and moping around because I'm not happy with my grades, my body, my wardrobe, personality, schedule, motivation... EVERYTHING... so pretty much, I've been a typical teenage girl. A ton of people go through these worries; I know I'm not the first. This time though, I want to- neigh- I need to do something about it. I'd like to be able to look back on my freshman year and think "Wow, that was the toughest year of my life; glad that's over with," but in order to do that, I need to stop over thinking. Every problem I've ever had can be boiled down to me over analyzing the situation. I need to stop thinking so much, and start doing. That, my friend, is what brings me to this blog post. My grandma died yesterday and I'm in a bit of a shock as is the rest of my family. Right now, it's serving as a mental kick in the ass for me to start doing. My family might be (will be) moving from the house I've been in all my life.... now, as someone who HATES change, I can tell you: this will be stressful (as if it isn't enough already). Anyways, one of my goals that I've had since about fifth grade is to have a blog, or a website, or YouTube account, and to become famous doing them all eventually. I have a website, but don't know how to create the proper html yet, I have a YouTube account, but I hardly post videos, I have a tumblr blog, but I only reblog pictures of cats.... so I've resorted to blog spot until I can get my website up and running. It's 11:13 pm on 4/26/13, and I need some sleep. As I sleep, Ill forget the change that's happening, the change that has already happened, and remember my parents wise words as they were easing me into the idea of a new lifestyle, "Don't worry, you'll get used to it. Just think of it as a new adventure."
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